Pain

These last 2 days have been really tough. everything is new and i have to get used to them in the shortest of time. e.g. instantaneously! Argh.

I believe it will take me another few more days to be really confident, but just as i long feared, this week will be really low for me.

I refuse to believe that i can't do it. I refuse to believe that I cannot make sense of learnings delivered in little information packets here and there. I refuse to believe that other people's impatience = my need to be able to guess how things work.

Don't ... Give ... Up ...