Stunned

left something in beijing. what is it? my soul? my ignorance? my complacence? my brother? my knitting needle? a feeling?

i can't find out. cos i don't want to. life has changed. things at office, at home, in singapore have faded in colour. i've brought back with me a deep sadness. could it be the palace? was it the grievances in the air that affected me without my knowing? this trip was sobering. it took off my permanent high.

i find myself watching TV without knitting at the same time. I find myself staring blankly at the screen without realizing what the show is about

what's worse is i don't want to pick myself up.

神话

回家了... 整个人呆呆的,失去了方向.没有睡,心里只有一个念头...买神话.

4 nights in Beijing

4 nights, in Beijing, i understood a lot of things... why moisturizer is needed, why motorcyclists need to wear gloves, why no cold shower after sports.

there are lot of things our parents tell us not to do but which seems absurd in SG. however, that's because the temperature here is never as harsh as what our grandparents were used to. I guess somewhere along the way, they forgot why they remember those rules as well.

similarly, there are a lot of things that our grandparents did not pass down due to the comfortable climate in SG and which exposes us to great risks when placed in such harsh weather.

I don't know how to begin to describe the trip. i guess i need some time to let it all sink in. i thought it was strange that i had an easy farewell, only to find my tear finally dropping when i stepped out of Changi airport.

my hero: thank u for keeping me alive and protected from the harsh elements.

Valentine's 2008

enuff said. :D

mousey year

This year starts really strange. some good, some very bad.

Good:
made some really good friends last year who is treading into this new year with me.
found a good maid last year which made my CNY party a whooping success
family all healthy and happy.
pets all healthy and somewhat happy.

Bad:
people at work are more stressed up as ever.. why?
i'm not disciplined enough, food, gym, etc.
sisters are not happy with one another